I totally support Len on this one Sha'ul. You indeed have an amazing heart and an intrepid sense of direction [how else would you have come across the Culdians and the teachings of Gwineva et al] inasmuch as you see, or feel, or simply
know, that
something is right. I remember, one or two years back now

, how I was totally transformed by the teachings of Gwineva. They completely floored me and well over 30 years later they still amaze me. Not only did I resonate with the teachings, I also resonated with the people who called themselves Culdians following a brand new path set up only months beforehand.
Like the grass outside, we were all so very green and inexperienced in this sort of thing, but fortunately there were those supporting us as we floundered, on many, many occasions, as we progressed from the cradle (so-to-speak) to a very shaky crawl.
When I think back on these things (I was about 21 or 22 - still a kid) I know how frustrating it must have been for our mentors (corporeal and non-corporeal) in guiding us along.
I think this song might explain how we, as Culdians, feel about you and all those other wonderful souls just waiting to come on in...
Kia kaha ehoa (be strong my friend).